I wish I had a calling. You know, like something I was really good at. Music, writing, film, dancing, sports, anything. I can do somethings here and there, but nothing really impressive. I always seem to give up on what I start. I want to play the drums, like be in a band and everything, but I always find an excuse not to. "I have too much homework", "I don't have time", "I'm busy", "I need new cymbals".  The problem is that I say these things to myself and I believe them too. Or my journal; I write in it for 3 days and then I stop. Maybe I'm just lazy.